I can never figure out why I can make a post on here live within 30 minutes, but it takes me months to work on a Google Doc for a blog post.
Anyhoo, a few updates and thoughts:
Work/life balance
Focusing on what I want to do outside of work hours — work shouldn’t (most of the time) take up my entire day. What do I want to do when I’m not working? Since I write and spend time at a computer for work, I don’t know if writing brings me as much joy anymore, but I could be wrong.
How do I be more efficient, not productive?
Mainly in work, because when I’m not it feeds into my outside of work time.
Will eating more calories a day increase, maintain, or decrease my weight?
Living in a society that’s hyper-focused on “eating less” does some damage to one’s psyche. Throw into the mix being obese as a kid and you’ve got quite the combo there. I’ve decided to track my calories and pay special attention to the amount of protein I consume per day. My goal is to consume my body weight in grams of protein and then eat whatever else I want with my remaining calories — what an adjustment it’s been to stuff my face every day. Trying for 4-6 weeks and evaluating. Already feel stronger and am able to do more in my workouts (which were semi-consistent prior to).
Being alone
Toying with deleting dating apps (only have Hinge), and focus less on finding a partner and more on me. Seem like more pros than cons. Tbh, I have a fear of being alone and there’s a huge pressure I feel to have a partner — but it’s also one of the top 3 things I want in my life (in addition to kids and building something meaningful). Plus, now having had a long-term partner, I can confirm it rocks, even when it sucks. I’m impatient and want to speed up the process, but it doesn’t look like the universe is working in that way using technology for me.
— T